My 4 Day Weekend

Yeah its been a while but I do have somethings to say these days. Pretty bored too so it might be a little lenghty.

I'll start it off with the subject of working out. I think im beginning to feel like a gym rat or whatever you call those people that go to the gym everyday haha. I love being there and havent felt lazy about going so far. I go like 5-6 times a week and the days i don't go, i feel anxious to go. I dunno what it is but i just feel real good after a work out. I think i just need something else to keep me busy as its the only thing i do besides school.

Friday i chilled with a few friends and i thought of something when it comes to me and the way i am around them. I was cool just being myself and having fun but i noticed im only like that when there is only a small group of us. At that time there was only 4 of them and that was just chill. On Sunday it was almost everyone and i was just being kind of an Outcast or just quiet and all that. So I guess its something about big groups that get the best of me and thats still something im trying to figure out. Haha im weird but hey everyone has their own shit to feel weird about.

Anyway I ended up smoking even though i felt bad after but come to think of it, i have a feeling that no one is gonna hit me up for a job as the holiday shopping is coming closer and closer and i think i have a bad rep from my old job at the UPS store. I really didn't do anything bad (except this one time when i sent a package when it wasnt supposed to be sent yet [i didn't see the note]) and its just a long story of problems by the end. Just letting you guys know...Korean Boss's are so wack. Good luck if you are working for one haha. I think next time i fill out applications im just gonna leave that out and just say i have no work experience. I know people that got jobs when they never worked their whole lives. The fuck is that shit? haha. I'm still trying to stay clean just in case but whenever its around me i just get tempted to do it again. O yeah i did on sunday too! damn...

Saturday i headed to the valley for my dentist appointment and got my cavity fillings done and i guess they have to do 2 more. I think those are the ones that fell off from back in the day. When i came in i read some of the signs they had and was just laughing to myself cuz they were pretty ridiculous. One of them was charging people $50 for no shows and the other one was charging people $10 if they are irritable, angry, and etc. I find that funny because its hard not to get mad there. Sometimes when i have appointments i end up waiting 1-2 hours to get my name called and sometimes when people add things to teeth like say braces, they would fall out on the same day and would have to go back or make another appointment which could take up to 2 months. If they charge me $50 for a no show they should get slapped because they are lucky someone an hour away is doing business with them. Anyway on with my day haha. Me my mom and my dad ended up going to my cousins house and i rolled with him and his homies to The Hundreds and some other stores and bought me a shirt. Looking at all the stores made me want to go on a shopping spree! but unfortunately theres always a money problem haha. After that i went to my uncles house for his birthday and that night was going chill until i started talking to people in front of The bitch ass Rat in my family.

Let me introduce you to The Rat. Its my cousin on my moms side who i thought would be cool to talk to and share stories of somethings in my life and all that since well she's my cousin but no she's someone who wont keep her mouth shut and tell my mom EVERYTHING i tell her. Let me tell you about her life...she's an OT and grew up never having a boyfriend and invades other peoples lives by being a nosy ass bitch. The only friends she has is family members. She thinks she's looking out for me at times but no she just makes shit worse and doesnt understand how people are these days. Like this one time when i had friendster and other people could read testimonials adn she saw my friend type "I wanna make out with you" as a joke and my cousin became a bitch about it and said i don't like her who is she. back the fuck off bitch! She's just this goody good person who needs to just back the fuck off. She believes that me being the GOOD BOY from back in the day is still gonna be the same person for the rest of my life and thinks that people in my life are just bad influences and blames them for me being the way i am. The shit that pisses me off the most is her being the biggest bitch to my cousin when he didnt even do anything. Theres so many things i could have been influenced by like uh friends and tv and shit but i feel like she revolves everything around him. Let me talk about some incidents. My ousin had a tattoo and had his ears pierced before. Then later (when i was cool with her) i said i wanna get that too and be somewhat of a rebel and i'm sure she blames it on Fil for me having those ideas which was completely wrong. I HAVE FRIENDS and those are just styles which is something she doesnt know about. I found out that she told people like her mom when we were all talking in the living room the next time we saw each other. Out of nowhere her mom goes "Did you know you can't get an MRI if you have a tattoo?" WHAT THE FUCK! Bitch ass. So thats when i ended up not saying shit to her anymore and just seeing her as the Rat in the family. I remember having a conversation with my cool cousin and talked about the one and only party i had at my house and the fights that broke out. I made sure i was talking to him and only him and then found out that my mom knew after that. So pretty much she eavesdropped on the conversation and fuck her for that. On saturday we were talking about music i listen to at the gym and i said if i wanna run for 30 minutes i could just listen to a megamix of techno/trance songs and itll keep me going. Then my other cousin mentioned drum n bass and i made fun of the way people danced to that and said ive been to a rave before. The Rat wanted to get the inside scoop of if i dropped and i said no and i DIDN't and it seems like she didnt believe me...bitch. Then she asked did your cousin go with you? That shit pissed me off and just wanted to punch her in the face. Man i hate her. That def ruined the night. There's so many things where she did things like that and i don't understand why she needed to tell my parents about shit i do. Back off bitch. Get a life! Never had a boyfriend? Get a girlfriend if ur a dyke! Make some friends! Stop going on vacation by yourself like a loner! Socialize with people outside the family....BITCH!

Lemme calm down as writing all that made me mad and talk about Sunday a little. Random day to party but hey its the actual day of my friend's bday so we ended up having a barbecue at Gerry's house and i cooked all the Carne Asada and hotdogs just for them as i was bored and it was something to do. Everyone was pretty burnt out from Monster Massive and not much happened except chillin and chillin summore. Everyone left early as monday was the next day and it was only a couple people left. It got reaal quiet and kinda awkward so it was my cue to leave. I was a little high but i had the urge to go to the gym haha. If i didnt it would have been the third day of rest where i didnt want happening. So i ended my night at the gym and was there for a cool minute.

So that ended the original weekend and here i am on day 4 of my weekend as i skipped Tennis class today and just hung out at home putting in those tweaks to my Fantasy Basketball team (which has more than 3 bills on the line). Speaking of basketball, tomorrow is the day baby! The official tip off of the NBA. Can't wait to see what happens. Its gonna be a good year.

Long enough? haha ill be surprised if you sat and read through everything with no break.

"Trust Only Those Close to You"

-Brent