I need...

A FUCKING JOB! Asking money from the parents is something i really hate doing. The worst part is when they say they have "No Money" and then i can't do shit but stay home being a broke ass while other people do things without me. The MASSIVE search starts NOW!

If u are thinking of going to 24hr fitness...

NEVER go at 7! That shit was paacked! I couldnt do shit for the first 30 minutes. It was just a bunch of waiting around. Treadmills and Ellipticals were covered and i as well as everyone else doesnt like the bikes. They were the only things not being used in the whole gym and i was forced to do my warm up on that. It was pretty wack waiting for the right weights to be returned (or not returned at all) and also waiting for the tricep pulldown (which i didnt even get to use because there were so many people on that shit i didnt get the chance.). With the frustration i had it was all relieved when i saw this one cute girl doing squats and i dunno what it is but that shit was hot haha. Nice ass body too! I love the gym.

Note to Self: Buy Dial Soap for Men. Smells so good it makes me wanna slap my mama. It's like a clean shave but on the hands haha.

My 4 Day Weekend

Yeah its been a while but I do have somethings to say these days. Pretty bored too so it might be a little lenghty.

I'll start it off with the subject of working out. I think im beginning to feel like a gym rat or whatever you call those people that go to the gym everyday haha. I love being there and havent felt lazy about going so far. I go like 5-6 times a week and the days i don't go, i feel anxious to go. I dunno what it is but i just feel real good after a work out. I think i just need something else to keep me busy as its the only thing i do besides school.

Friday i chilled with a few friends and i thought of something when it comes to me and the way i am around them. I was cool just being myself and having fun but i noticed im only like that when there is only a small group of us. At that time there was only 4 of them and that was just chill. On Sunday it was almost everyone and i was just being kind of an Outcast or just quiet and all that. So I guess its something about big groups that get the best of me and thats still something im trying to figure out. Haha im weird but hey everyone has their own shit to feel weird about.

Anyway I ended up smoking even though i felt bad after but come to think of it, i have a feeling that no one is gonna hit me up for a job as the holiday shopping is coming closer and closer and i think i have a bad rep from my old job at the UPS store. I really didn't do anything bad (except this one time when i sent a package when it wasnt supposed to be sent yet [i didn't see the note]) and its just a long story of problems by the end. Just letting you guys know...Korean Boss's are so wack. Good luck if you are working for one haha. I think next time i fill out applications im just gonna leave that out and just say i have no work experience. I know people that got jobs when they never worked their whole lives. The fuck is that shit? haha. I'm still trying to stay clean just in case but whenever its around me i just get tempted to do it again. O yeah i did on sunday too! damn...

Saturday i headed to the valley for my dentist appointment and got my cavity fillings done and i guess they have to do 2 more. I think those are the ones that fell off from back in the day. When i came in i read some of the signs they had and was just laughing to myself cuz they were pretty ridiculous. One of them was charging people $50 for no shows and the other one was charging people $10 if they are irritable, angry, and etc. I find that funny because its hard not to get mad there. Sometimes when i have appointments i end up waiting 1-2 hours to get my name called and sometimes when people add things to teeth like say braces, they would fall out on the same day and would have to go back or make another appointment which could take up to 2 months. If they charge me $50 for a no show they should get slapped because they are lucky someone an hour away is doing business with them. Anyway on with my day haha. Me my mom and my dad ended up going to my cousins house and i rolled with him and his homies to The Hundreds and some other stores and bought me a shirt. Looking at all the stores made me want to go on a shopping spree! but unfortunately theres always a money problem haha. After that i went to my uncles house for his birthday and that night was going chill until i started talking to people in front of The bitch ass Rat in my family.

Let me introduce you to The Rat. Its my cousin on my moms side who i thought would be cool to talk to and share stories of somethings in my life and all that since well she's my cousin but no she's someone who wont keep her mouth shut and tell my mom EVERYTHING i tell her. Let me tell you about her life...she's an OT and grew up never having a boyfriend and invades other peoples lives by being a nosy ass bitch. The only friends she has is family members. She thinks she's looking out for me at times but no she just makes shit worse and doesnt understand how people are these days. Like this one time when i had friendster and other people could read testimonials adn she saw my friend type "I wanna make out with you" as a joke and my cousin became a bitch about it and said i don't like her who is she. back the fuck off bitch! She's just this goody good person who needs to just back the fuck off. She believes that me being the GOOD BOY from back in the day is still gonna be the same person for the rest of my life and thinks that people in my life are just bad influences and blames them for me being the way i am. The shit that pisses me off the most is her being the biggest bitch to my cousin when he didnt even do anything. Theres so many things i could have been influenced by like uh friends and tv and shit but i feel like she revolves everything around him. Let me talk about some incidents. My ousin had a tattoo and had his ears pierced before. Then later (when i was cool with her) i said i wanna get that too and be somewhat of a rebel and i'm sure she blames it on Fil for me having those ideas which was completely wrong. I HAVE FRIENDS and those are just styles which is something she doesnt know about. I found out that she told people like her mom when we were all talking in the living room the next time we saw each other. Out of nowhere her mom goes "Did you know you can't get an MRI if you have a tattoo?" WHAT THE FUCK! Bitch ass. So thats when i ended up not saying shit to her anymore and just seeing her as the Rat in the family. I remember having a conversation with my cool cousin and talked about the one and only party i had at my house and the fights that broke out. I made sure i was talking to him and only him and then found out that my mom knew after that. So pretty much she eavesdropped on the conversation and fuck her for that. On saturday we were talking about music i listen to at the gym and i said if i wanna run for 30 minutes i could just listen to a megamix of techno/trance songs and itll keep me going. Then my other cousin mentioned drum n bass and i made fun of the way people danced to that and said ive been to a rave before. The Rat wanted to get the inside scoop of if i dropped and i said no and i DIDN't and it seems like she didnt believe me...bitch. Then she asked did your cousin go with you? That shit pissed me off and just wanted to punch her in the face. Man i hate her. That def ruined the night. There's so many things where she did things like that and i don't understand why she needed to tell my parents about shit i do. Back off bitch. Get a life! Never had a boyfriend? Get a girlfriend if ur a dyke! Make some friends! Stop going on vacation by yourself like a loner! Socialize with people outside the family....BITCH!

Lemme calm down as writing all that made me mad and talk about Sunday a little. Random day to party but hey its the actual day of my friend's bday so we ended up having a barbecue at Gerry's house and i cooked all the Carne Asada and hotdogs just for them as i was bored and it was something to do. Everyone was pretty burnt out from Monster Massive and not much happened except chillin and chillin summore. Everyone left early as monday was the next day and it was only a couple people left. It got reaal quiet and kinda awkward so it was my cue to leave. I was a little high but i had the urge to go to the gym haha. If i didnt it would have been the third day of rest where i didnt want happening. So i ended my night at the gym and was there for a cool minute.

So that ended the original weekend and here i am on day 4 of my weekend as i skipped Tennis class today and just hung out at home putting in those tweaks to my Fantasy Basketball team (which has more than 3 bills on the line). Speaking of basketball, tomorrow is the day baby! The official tip off of the NBA. Can't wait to see what happens. Its gonna be a good year.

Long enough? haha ill be surprised if you sat and read through everything with no break.

"Trust Only Those Close to You"

-Brent

My Mom Laggin It

This whole month ive been waiting on my mom to pay for the application fee for CSUN and so far she hasn't come through. I would always remind her and then she would give me the "I don't have money right now" excuse or the "i will do it next week" or "ill do it when i get paid" excuse. I'm starting to get the idea that shes doing it on purpose to keep me here at home haha. I like the AV and all because its home and i grew up here but yeah its time to move on mom lol. I still have a month to turn it in but times awasting and id rather have it in early. I don't even wanna imagine what would happen if i miss the deadline but somehow it might not be THAT bad. Like i said before, im still unsure if i wanna finish up the prep classes here at AVC or there at CSUN. I'm just giving it time to think about it. But right now i just wanna see if i at least get accepted.

October 22 (lovin that easy title)

Just been chillin lately. Saturday was the cousin's bday and hit up oiwake (japanese restaurant) which was also a bar. I was trippin most of the time because well...im not 21 yet and i dunno if bribing the bouncer would work this time around (it worked before last time i was there). But when i got there they didnt even card anyone and i got the stamp. It's a chill place. Fuck i wish i had a camera haha. Each day i fuck around with my cousins SLR it makes me want to get one on the spot. But itll come one day. Probably after the HDTV haha. Anyway, so we just chilled and drank the night away and gave Fil random ass drinks which made him the most wasted hes ever been haha. I'm sure he wasnt having much fun by the end. When my bday comes i definitely dont wanna get wasted. More like a drunk where im having the the time of my life and end it on a good note. O and i wanna remember the whole night lol. The bday wasnt over there as i tagged along to the dinner with the family at this classy looking place where they sell expensive steaks which was fucking bomb! It was pretty a pretty dope location. Next to the airport where you can see planes taking off. After that it was back to his house for some red velvet cake and then i bounced back to the weak sauce palmdale.

Monday was fucking draaaaining! Couldn't sleep at all and ended up getting 3 hours of sleep. Then went to AVC to play tennis (which was my only class thank God) and it was tooo damn hot (where did the cold go?). Then i thought i could just rest at home but i decided to hit up the gym with the homie and then that night it was his birthday so i stayed out till like 1:30 cuz i was already falling asleep. I didn't feel like getting up and doing anything but smoking that hookah as thats a chill thing to do. O lets go to some serious talk.

I wasn't only tired but i was just feeling weird. Lately chilling with friends has just been off. For some reason i feel out of place like i dont belong there. I can't really explain it in detail as i really don't know whats going on with me but its just how things been lately. Like i don't feel the bonds are there when it comes to me. When i take a look around the room and see everyone hanging out i just go damn...and i just feel different like im not a part of the group. I changed the way i act now and its not the same as before. Like for example one of them says insults like "ur an asshole or fuck you or just be mad whenever I leave early for something or just some other shit". He would usually be messing around and doesn't mean it but now i just feel that he's being serious and im taking it to heart sometimes and just get angry and say fuck this shit i don't need to hear it you know? It's just a random feeling that just goes to my head and i make a big deal about it i guess. I dunno...i guess things change? O and im sure at least ONE of the readers of this blog knows who im talking about. I'm not targeting him or anything like that. It was just an example. I really don't know what to do about it but just chill with friends and see what happens.

-Brent

I love this team

I missed the game but these highlights pump me up!

Oct 18-19 (just lazy to think of a title)

Fil is pretty fucked up right now and knocked out haha. Happy birthday dood!

Finally Something About Me This Time

No this is not a review or input on something. Its about me this time haha. Let me give you an update. I kinda feel like typing a lot today. Just to rest my muscles that are soon to be gunz haha jp.

Thursday was going fine but did something i knew i shouldn't have done and procrastinate on studying for a midterm for Philosophy. I ended up taking my 2 hour break to TRY to read 2 long chapters (which i havent read before) off a computer screen (the whole book is typed on word) which hurt the shit out of my eyes. The worst part is that its on a computer! haha. That means im bound to distract myself by looking at useless information that wouldnt help me with the test (ie myspace, nba news, looking at blogs, trying to find something else to look at than the chapters). So by the time class began i didnt finish one chapter and didnt study to well as all i did was read the chapters without analyzing anything after i read parts. so that pretty much screwed me in the end as the test was insane. So that was a downer. I hate failing at things. Its something that easily gets me down and angry with myself. Especially when i know i could have done better and if its related to school. Thats because well...school is where life goes on (well in my case). If i fail going to school i fail a part of my life. Time doesn't stand still obviously. AS EACH DAY PASSES, I get a day older and they add up to weeks then months then years. I just don't want to look back and know that i failed something i could have accomplished. Call this cliche but ill say it anyway. You can't change the past. Now i know what you guys are thinking. "Chill out dood its only one exam" and i know that. But im just talking about failing in life in general and im sure all of you can agree with me with that topic. It all starts with little things. The thing is....I don't plan on failing.

As of now im pretty satisfied with everything going on with my life and i've learned to just say fuck it and just live it. Forget any problems that bother me and slow me down. I'm still young and my past is starting to be behind me. I'll admit that I have changed in the past couple of months and still changing as i speak. Even everyone i know is changing. But change is something that just happens and I just learn to accept it. Heh..this is a big step from years back. I'm coming from wanting to kill myself to just living the life i have. You only live once and God gave me the gift to live. I'm just happy that i never did what i felt like doing in the past. There's so much more for me to learn AS EACH DAY PASSES.

Let's cut the seriousness and just chill for a moment haha. To be honest, I wasnt planning to talk about that on here. I guess it just came up and as i was typing, one thought led to another and that came out. There's a lot of cliche quotes there but hey they are some true and deep words IMO. Anyway, so im just waiting till next thursday to see what i got on that midterm. If i don't do so hot it would all depend on the final on if i pass or not.

So it's been two weeks since i've been working out at home. Taking protein everyday and working out my arms most of the time and well..im lovin it! I also grabbed a 24 hour fitness gym pass today and i just got home from there. it's a pretty cool experience. I feel more motivated to work out there than at home and plus they got some crazy ass machines that of course i don't have. I describe it as what my friend who i saw there said. "It's like an amusement park" and well thats kind of what i see. So many machines to choose from haha. I only did a medium work out as i just wanted to check out the place. Theres people that look at me struggling to do a set amount of reps or pushing low weights (to them i guess) but i really don't care. Doesn't phaze me, I just keep saying...these fools were like me once. All in all, im liking the gym and plan to go ALMOST everyday. Gotta save a day or 2 to have some fun haha. Whoever is down to go with me let me know! I'm sure workouts are better when someone you know is around. But today it was just me and DJ ipod. I'm seeing some change in my body and that just motivates me to keep on pushing the weights. Whats even better, its increasing my self esteem and i know that the higher it is the happier i will get. I wish i did this a while ago!

Something thats also keeping me up is job hunting. It's that time again to find a job while holiday shopping is underway. Wednesday was the annual Fall job fair and there was a couple places i was interested in. So far i applied for Target, Old Navy, and Mt. High! If i had to choose which one i wanted most it would probably be Old Navy just for the fact that its not as far as Mt. High and it seems like it would be the more chill job. Target kind of reminds me of Wal-Mart (especially when its super target) and im not a fan of Wal-Mart. Watch this DVD called Wal-Mart: Low Prices at a High Cost (or something like that) and you'll see what i mean. Mt High is just far and i would have to do Canyon runs whenever i have to go to work haha jk. But it is pretty far. The upside to that is a $10 season pass and just being on the mountain most of the time which would be so dope. I still plan on applying to Best Buy and that is my #1! My favorite store! haha. Discounts babeh! Right now its all about the waiting game to see if they call.

Since i'm trying to get a job that means i would have to be tested and pretty much i've stopped smoking for a while and i like the feeling. I feel free and clean like all the toxins are releasing from my body. Especially when i break out a good sweat working out or playing tennis. I can't say it'll be a permanent thing but im down for it to be. But i doubt it's the end of that phase lol.

Last thing, I went on 1iota just to see who's performing on various shows and found TI to be sold out but saw my man John Legend not sold out and grabbed some tickets to that. It's only a mini concert but im still down! I'm pretty excited! I wanna see a full concert by him one day and especially a Jay-Z concert before that guy definitely retires. This is where the job kicks in haha. O and something else to add to my wish list is fuckin Laker's Tickets! I HAVE to see a game while Kobe is in his prime and i have to watch it from a good seat and not the top section where i usually sat in the past. I'm straight with somewhere under the suites.

Tomorrow (or should i say today) I'm gonna hit up the valley for cousin Fil's bday bar thing. I better get in! If i don't then damn...looks like ill be chillin in the car the rest of the night haha fuck that would suck.

-Brent

A Little More on Music Interest

On the way home i was listening to my ipod and realized that im starting to get into the mood of listening to chill songs again like stuff by Corrine Bailey Rae, John Mayer, Michael Buble, and Etc. I guess its a typical college student's musical interests. I'm thinking its because the weather is cold now and i dunno, whenever its a cold day i like to just chill and listen to soothing songs and when its hot i like the more upbeat stuff. I dunno if this is how other people are like but thats me. I havent listened to this the whole summer/fall but now i can listen to it whenever it comes up. Now for your enjoyment....

Brian McKnight - Back at One (Acoustic)


Something Just for fun...I'm watching my wife and kids and Terry Crew's is in it and as always, that mothafucka is hilarious! haha
(just watch the first 5 minutes)



-Brent

Reviews

I'm not gonna give full all out reviews but more of an i like it or not feel. Just lazy to type about each song.

Music
Ne-Yo: Year of the Gentleman - Top guy to listen to love songs right now. Its a good album but I still like Because of You better. Just like that album, every track is listenable and just really chill. It's a different sound. It's more classier and softer sounding. I don't recommend it for car rides though haha.
Grade: B

T.I.: Paper Trail - I like this album. Most tracks are pretty raw and TI is just being TI with his swag lyrics. Swagger like us is on the album which got me a little excited because i thought that song was just something that wouldnt be on an album and more of a fun thing to record. But dope its on there. Another chill album.
Grade: A

Movies
Starship Troopers 3: Marauder - Garbage ass movie! I thought the return of Casper Van Dien would make things better but it was just a big let down. The bugs didnt even look as good as from the first one. So many cheesy parts and man everything was wrong with the movie. Don't watch this unless you are a fan of the trilogy and want to see what happens next. But i say nothing really does happen. See for yourself. I'm sorry if you waste 2 hours of your life watching this shit.
Grade: D-

The Forbidden Kingdom - I liked this movie and it was pretty good. But the downfall was just some of the cheesy parts they had in it. They should have thrown out the white guy and the kinda annoying Chinese girl (sparrow) and replaced it with just that ancient chinese world. The fighting was dope. I like it when they add those matrix type fighting into the mix. I liked how Jackie Chan and Jet Li were in the same movie. They are some awesome doods. Favorite part is probably when they were fighting each other. I guess it was just a sight to see. Overall i recommend it for people who like kung fu movies. Its kinda like a kung fu lord of the rings type movie. Ull see what i mean if u watch it.
Grade: B-

O and just for fun ill post some of the pretty cute girls from the movies haha

Li BingBing played the witch in The Forbidden Kingdom and she was lookin pretty good in her costume
Jolene Blalock played Lola in Starship Troopers 3. Wack actress but DAYM! as a model.

-Brent

Chillin At AVC

It's kinda hard blogging everyday when theres really nothing going on with my life right now. Its just full of repetativeness until the weekend comes along or if theres something that pisses me off lol. Buut here it goes...

TGI thursday! even though classes arent that crazy yet im pretty over it for this week. I guess im just tired from last nights work out session. I'm pretty sore but im feeling satisfied with what i got done yesterday. Looks like tonight ill be doing the same thing but more intensified if my arms (soon to be guns haha jp) are able to take the punishment.

Right now im chillin in the computer lab waiting for my next class to start at 7 and ends at 10. Im such a school boy haha. I can leave that class whenever i want but when i do i feel guilty for some reason and i feel that i missed so much info even though i can read it all off the textbook. So i usually stay and go through the grueling and boring 3 hours of lecture. Speaking of reading the textbook, i should be reading that shit right now but fuck it im lazy haha. hopefully the test isnt today. Yup that shows how much i pay attention in that class haha.

-Brent

Down to be The Rock Buff haha

The tennis coach asked me if I knew when Fall starts.....

Tell me about it!!!! Once again it was a ridiculously hot ass day to be playing tennis. I'm sure i got darker and well i sweated my ass off but that was the best part of it. I'm starting to get this hype of working out now and im glad im feeling this way because its something that i wanted to do for a while but wouldnt go through with it. It was usually a work out for 2 days and not work out after that for a while then work out again for 2 days and then stop again. But this time i have a good feeling about it. I can't wait to see results...or actually, i hope i see results. It's time to put that unused home gym in the garage to use.

I finally registered to vote yesterday. Well i was already registered but they mispelled my name so i had to do it again. I'd say that was a lucky break because that shit got me out of jury duty haha. But of course i have to fix the name because this election is gonna be historical. I don't want to get into that here as i have a couple things to say about politics these days haha.

Also today i applied to CSUN. It's the waiting game now!

Nice i actually updated within a day lol.

Till hopefully tomorrow

Peace

-Brent

Highlights of Week 9/29

Ahh the feeling i get when i pass a test. I feel really good and just energizes me for the rest of the day. I'm talking about my psych exam where i didnt study at all and just winged it since there was no other option when i got to class. I ended up getting a B and a B is just fine with me haha. Anyway im not gonna talk about what happened the whole week like i usually do which can be a little repetitive. Ill just talk about the highlights.

I went to a counselor on wednesday and i found out that i can transfer to CSUN by next fall if i get my shit done this semester, take comm during intersession, and take only i think 8 units in the spring. I'm pretty excited but im kind of debating on if i should just finish the prep classes for physical therapy at AVC before heading to CSUN. Thatll take about a year but actually im not as anxious to leave the dale as early as i can like before. First of all it would be cheaper and second, Palmdale is home. No matter how many countless days of not having anything to do here cuz of too much weak sauce (fuck u fil haha), its still home. Im planning on applying this week and then its the waiting game to see if they accept me or not.

Saturday i chilled with the baby boy Jaiden with his hair a little longer after being razored a week ago. My dad's genius idea after i shaved it a #1 which led to some cuts on his head and irritating burns that made him cry (good idea man). He looked like a G! haha. This is the part where i wished i had a boss camera! But i don't :(.

I started working out today (finally) but not with weights and all that yet. just minor shit like push ups, sit ups, and the wii fit since its there and not ever being used by my sister who bought it. I keep forgetting that i have a home gym in the garage. ill start using that shit as soon as its not hot as fuck in there. Or even better, i need a gym membership and boom it begins my journey to get buff nasty and toned haha. Fuck it ill just shoot some roids! jp

Again...ill try updating more often. I just keep forgetting about this thing. I think its time to make this my homepage.

Stay Up

-Brent