I wanna see the world

I just got back from LAX today and being there makes me want to travel!  I already said it to myself that i wanna see the world and thats one of my dreams of doing.  I'll be one step closer if i can hit up Hong Kong next summer as my mom said she will buy me a ticket to go there then to the philippines where ill meet them (since the ticket wont be too much to travel from HK to PI).  I asked if that was for sure and she said yeah.  Haha ill believe it when i see it.  There's been a streak of us not going to the Philippines over the past couple years so yeah im not excited one bit for now.  Anyway we dropped my uncle off and here i am back in good ol palmdale.  The city of...nothing.  lol

A Random Thought

Nowadays i'm really starting to not give about certain things and i'm feeling good about it but i'm thinking one day it'll bite me in the ass

-Brent

Just another week passed...

Sorry for the late ass update again.  I know you die hard fans of this blog are aching for the next post haha jp.  I would be surprised if people i don't know read all this shit and follows it haha

Another week of school out of the way and once again it was just chill. Next week might be tough with a couple test days but im sure i can work through it.

Wednesday was just full of annoyances haha. Tennis i rallied with the same guy all the time and he would just be lazy as usual. But what gets me is that hes always on his phone texting his girlfriend while we play and well thats a distraction. IMO he's pretty sprung off her (dood has a picture of her on his folder...i'd say that says enough lol). Anyway after that i decided to grab some Jack and when i ask for buttermilk house sauce they said they have to charge 6 cents for that. Waddafuhk? First the chicken sandwich is 1.19 and now they charge for the sauce? It's an outrage! lol. It's like when McDonalds started charging for barbecue sauce. After the meal it was off to chem lab and i seriously do NOT want the same dumbass lab partners. I pretty much did all the work while one person copied what was on my lab report and the other did the same AND she would as so many damn questions about what i just did and how i did this and how to do that and she wants to know EVERY single bit of information when she doesnt even need to know EVERYTHING. They both deserve to get slapped! Fuck group work!

I went to Red Robbins on thursday and the Freckled Lemonade is just too addicting and ended up drinking like 4-5 cups. If some of you don't know what that is its lemonade with strawberries in it and its bomb. Best part is the bottomless refills! o yeah and fries are bottomless as well! Haha feelin fat right now.  (this is where a dope ass camera would come in handy).  After that i checked out the new pharmacy store they had in the mall and grabbed a hundreds shirt.  Its the custom tee with 3 letters in each row spelling the hundreds with adam bomb on there.  I like it!  I wanna start buying hats and shit too! buuut...sadly still no job and not for a while haha.

*Update* Ok ive been working on this post for a while now since theres all these distractions that keep me from finishing it so im gonna finish it rah now with a short ass update so i can post this shit already

Last night (saturday 28th) went to a friends house to celebrate 3 birthday's and that was pretty chill.  Was kinda gone from one big ass corona and a 40 oz of bud light.  Left kinda early i guess as people were leaving and some were passed out and some were coupled up that made it seem a little weird haha. Also some people went to somewhere else which is kinda messed id say considering the fact that as friends..the friends should chill with the friends whos birthdays it is instead of ditching them for a little. Buut whateva thats just my opinion.

Now im just chilling at home trying to find things to do and i'm running out of ideas.  i really dont wanna resort to the homework early route haha jp.  Actually right now my sister asked if i wanted to hit up the valley because my uncle is here from the philippines for the weekend (for a convention. He makes mad bank by the way i aint gonna lie and im jealous haha) and i guess im gonna go since theres not much to do.  

Also today is my grandmother's death anniversary and i think we are all going to pray as well. she died last year at 93 i believe.  She lived a long life and im happy i got to see her a lot of times before that time came.  Rest in Peace Lola

-Brent

Another Satuday in the Valley

Yesterday was chill.  Headed over to the valley and helped set up some things in my sisters house. After that it was over to my cousins' house and by the end of the night pigged out on some bomb barbecue and delicious vietnamese noodles (with the sauce it came with) at my uncle's house.  I kinda lagged it to get there as chillin with the valley people are always fun haha.

I remember seeing a clip of a dance off of some NBA players and wanted to see the whole thing so for your viewing enjoyment, i give you the NBA Eastern Conference All-Star team dance off (long ass name)

-Brent 

Music

I was browsing through my itunes playlist looking for songs haven't heard in a while and saw Boyz II Men and man i forgot how dope these guys were (now they rolling without the bass Michael).  So many good songs and of course can't forget about this one.  I think they coming out with another album around 09 and it better be that new new shit and none of those remakes of motown hits or something like that again.

Since i'm on the subject of music i'll explain my interest on music.  I was just talking to my cousin on AIM about me and Hip-Hop and said that i can't stand rappers who rap a certain way.  Even though they are some sick lyrics i cant get passed the way its sounding.  I'm not someone who looks at lyrics much unless i hear it enough and learn the words as it keeps playing.  So i don't go to lyric websites and look songs up.  I find music to be a leisure activity where i can just chill and listen.  I listen to everything and appreciate different types of music even Country, Opera, Acoustic Piano, etc.  If i had a top 3 of genres it would probably go like this..

1. R&B - I've always liked it.  Ever since i was a kid i would like singing songs like that and i just grew into it.  If i ever had the opportunity to become a Rapper or Singer it would definitely be a singer because its what i like to do (privately lol).  I'm not saying im a good one but its         just something i grew up doing.  I like something i could sing to more than something i can   rap to. Anyway,  I would just find R&B to be the ultimate chill genre.  It would probably explain why i like Jazz and Soul music so much like this artist.

2. Hip-Hop - I know it has its own chill vibe and i would listen to it more than R&B nowadays but it would have to go as my number 2 just for the fact that i like R&B more.  I also grew up listening to hip-hop and it also influenced things like style and id say also my personality.  I dunno how to explain it but its kinda like..u know how there's a difference between a urban hip-hop culture attitude and a rock culture attitude? Well i consider myself to have more of the urban attitude.  I dunno if you know what i mean but ill just leave it at that. 

3. Rock - It wasn't something i would listen to back in the day but i grew to appreciate it more.   I listen to most types of Rock and there are some good bands out there.  Old and New. Without the classic rock artists there wouldn't be hip-hop.  

I don't want to explain every detail about me and music since im lazy so thats pretty much a quick view of it.  I guess for me i pretty much like catchiness and beats than lyrics.  All in all i Love music and can't live without it!  Im just someone that doesn't listen to it the way other people do.  I know you all have your own interests in music and maybe criticisms on my interests and how i listen to music but hey im just being myself.  Like i said for me music is just a leisure activity.

-Brent

A crazy thought and question

I played a set of tennis against this one guy in class that i usually rally with (which i hate cuz he would always hit that shit slow and the gameplay is so boring).  That guy was pissing me off cuz he would call lines out but i just played it off because i knew i could smash on him haha.  My 1st serves were 50% in and had most of my points off his unforced errors and won 6-3.  One game i totally fucked up my serves and gave him a point.  The others were just from him hitting it soft and me messing up by trying to smash the ball all the time.  Anyway that was fun.  Tiring but fun.  I gotta stop smoking though.  I feel it slowing me down and messing with my vocal cords (and i like to be someone that sings well..ill talk about it later for those that don't know). Don't know why i mentioned all that but hey i love tennis.  Can't wait to play my uncle who's been playing most of his life.  Probably slaughter me but id like to take that challenge.  Anyway time to talk about what the title is all about.

The class that makes me think is the Introduction to Philosophy.  I mentioned the teacher was an Atheist but he does have a lot of points that would make sense and things i would find ambiguous even though he has support for all his ideas.  We were talking a little about souls and abortion.  For those of you believers of souls (and a religion where you shouldn't get an abortion)  you should agree that abortion is wrong (but for me to some circumstances where if a girl is raped and pregnant by the attacker then she should get one but anyway,).  Now when you get an abortion its better when the embryo isn't a human form yet and its better when that is the case right?.  Ok well the embryo is a living thing and for those believers of souls, the question is....when does that embryo have a soul?  Does it even have a soul? If you are getting an abortion you might be killing something with a soul.  Crazy thought when i heard it.  I dunno that class is pretty interesting.  There's plenty of questions in his arsenal like that and its just crazy.  But as he says when everyone is in the classroom....it's Philosophy. 

I'm not expecting much to do this weekend but im down for it!!

Random Shit

I definitely gotta watch a Laker game!

I gotta see a Jay-Z concert

I need some new snow gear

I'm debating on Monster Massive

I wish i was 21 already

-Brent

A week already?

Whaaat?  Its been a week since the last post already?  i seriously thought its only been a couple days but oh well.  I'm sure about only 3 people read this anyway.

Not much has happened over the week but ill do a little recap.

Thursday (11th) i hung out with someone who ive been wanting to hang out with for the longest time and finally went to the movies with her.  I'm sure she knows ive been interested for a while but the thing is that (supposedly) shes not and well yeah...thats a waste of my time.  Ive actually wasted my time with her on other occasions but felt that something can happen later.  But she would just play it off and it felt as if shes only hanging out with me because all her friends are out of the AV and she has nothing better to do.  I missed one of my classes for that shit and now i regret it.  Def not worth it and done trying to get with that girl.  I could have used those 3 hours of class i missed for a good night boarding sesh lol.  Now i got to show up everyday.

After that i just chilled with a few friends at another friends house.  I normally would be someone that would just chill at peoples houses but i was bored and felt kinda out of place and wanted to leave early.  

Let me give you an example why i sometimes hate driving. 

I'm the driver and want to leave but the passengers don't want to leave (even if they say "yeah ill leave when you leave") and they end up lagging and stay at some place.  I say let's go and they would try to ignore me or say yeah lets go...they stand up then sit back down.  Makes me mad.  Its usually the reason why i like to drive somewhere by myself.  There's so many incidents that something like that happens.  Not only with driving but other things i dont really want to get into.  I just feel like i get taken advantage of sometimes and you know what?.....FUCK THAT

Friday a bunch of us went to the bowling alley and that was just chill.  It makes me think though.  Theres been countless times ive been to the bowling alley with people and i re-realized that there ain't shit to do in Palmdale.  I'd say theres only 3 things to do in Palmdale and thats 1. Movies, 2. Someones house, 3. Bowling.  Mall isn't on that list because its wack and not much people go there as much anymore IMO.  I guess what im saying is that there needs to be something new to do and im sure im speaking for all Palmdalians haha.

Saturday woke up early to drive down to Chatsworth to help my sister and her husband move out of the apartment and into the new pad in Sunland.  Took a good couple hours to get everything into the U-haul and had Dim-Sum in between.  I missed having that and that definitely soothed my craving.  After that it was off to Fil's house so we could roll out to a bar for our cousin's birthday.   We didn't know it was a bar bar at first but supposedly they werent carding so we rolled over there and pre partied a little and by the time we arrived i was pretty blown.  When i tried getting in they carded me and nope no entry there.  Then i guess my cousin worked something out and i got in and was 21 for the night.  I didn't really take advantage of that though.  Im someone that does not ever want to be drunk n lifted at the same time again. It usually ends in horrible vomiting which i never like doing haha.  The 2 patron shots and beer killed me but luckily no yacking.  

Remember when i said i dont want to be passive and be more aggressive? (i think i said that lol). Well if not then im saying that now.  It's a hard process for me.  Sometimes i just dont even know that im being passive about shit.  I'm just being me.  So get this...

Theres this asshole in the library bathroom who, by the smell of the room, took a mad nasty ass shit.  That was real foul smelling and one of the worst ive ever smelt a bathroom haha.  Anyway, as i was coming in he starts heading out and says something on his way out.  I thought he was talking to himself so i didnt really think about it.  I come in and do my thing and see that this fool didnt turn off the water.  So i washed my hands on that faucet since it was already on and turned it off when i was through.  Then after that i thought about what that guy could of said and found out (from the way the words sounded) he said "Don't forget to turn off the water".  Well i couldnt have done anything after that. i already turned the water off and i felt punked.  Fuck you guy whoever you are (and your mad ass shit smell where i almost yacked)! Next time im gonna listen to bitches next time and do something else than ignore them.

One more quick note.  I know by reading all these posts i have a lot of negative attitudes about things like life but thats just how things happen to me.  It's not my mind thats creating the negativity.  I feel like Eugene from Hey Arnold!  The jinx where everything always happens to him when he's just trying to live his life.

New Playlist

I added a playlist i usually put on myspace from time to time. Its pretty much a playlist that expresses my mind at different times.

The Beatles - Help
Things were so much easier back in the day. Now growing up its harder to live life and its important to have someone help out with problems.

Bob Marley - Three Little Birds
This is Bob's song of just being mellow and being worry free. Thats something i try to feel whenever little things that mess with my mind happen. Its all about just chillin. He's pretty much saying be happy with life.

John Legend - Show Me
It's a song thats speaking to God and asking questions that im sure everyone wants answers to as well.

John Mayer - In Repair
Blues song (Dope Album By The Way). When something bad happens in your life of course you wanna get over it right? Well when you are in the process you are in repair and trying to fix yourself. Easy as that.

John Mayer - Gravity
This song can be interpreted in different ways but in my opinion, its about something that you have that you shouldn't throw away. For example, Life in general. EVERYONE has one. It's something that you shouldn't take away. I believe everyone does have a purpose in life..they just have to let time pass as they try to find out what that purpose is. It can take years and years but eventually they will find out and shouldn't give up.

Greenday - Nice Guys Finish Last
People are saying that this phrase is not true anymore but im sure it is still in effect due to some of my experiences. Nice = Me. Wait...lemme redo that equation...Too Nice = Me. The song pretty much sums up why the phrase is true.

Musiq Soulchild - TheQuestions
Something that i havent had in a while and probably need is a girlfriend. I'm sure itll make me a happier person. If i ever love someone itll be even 10x better. Real Talk

So thats my playlist so far and ill probably add more when im bored.


Today was just chillin at school. I'm getting more interested in my psychology of prejudice class. Its something that more people should learn about. Its pretty crazy. I'm thinking the class would make me more open when it comes to that subject.
Chem was chill as well. Its still in the early stages so i cant say i can go through with it like nothing. I think the highlight of my day was a lame joke from the professor. This guy is like a nerd/hippie type person and a student asked if we had to learn this certain "crap". Then the professor paused looked at her and said "This is not crap". Its one of those things where you had to be there to laugh. i was dying haha. But yeah random stuff right now but hey thats what i usually do.
On another positive note for school, its beginning to feel like those times where going to school is going by very quickly and before you know it its the end of the semester. Thats when i start feeling comfortable with things and i can focus more now that i know what classes i have to go to and not have to crash any classes or anything like that.

Right now i think im gonna go eat and get some gametime on the box. Till next post...

-Brent

Another Weird Moment of BEnriquez

Alright call me weird but ive been thinking. I'm someone that hasn't had any real problems with anyone and havent really been into any kind of drama or anything like that. I'm also someone that takes criticism kinda harshly. If theres someone that has a problem with me or doesnt like something that i did it stays in my mind and makes me want to change or get that person to forgive me for that. I know that its something that i should always give a shit about so im trying to learn how to let things pass and not care what people say about me. So pretty much im kinda trying to get some people to say things like...o this guy is wack or something like that and i just want to be like...i don't give a fuck. I also want to say things that i always wanted to say at a point in time where i just kept my mouth shut thinking itll cause problems. There's some things that just has to be said....

i started small right now with project "i don't give a fuck about what you did" lol. All i did was post a bulletin on MySpace that said that people should get a blog instead of showing the world what they did today or something like that. Bulletins are for announcements and id rather see announcements rather than people saying "omg today was soo cool. I love hanging out with so and so". i post that and get hate messages and i find it funny how people get mad so easily. So they say things and you know what? i don't give a fuck! haha

Fuck Sensitivity

-Brent

The Long awaited Update...Not Really

I've been busy the past 2 weeks with school and family parties and havent really had time to get on this.


Well i guess i couldn't get as crazy as i said in the last post with school. It's not me out of laziness but one was kinda that case. It's all because of all the bitches that try to add the class and get them before me. 2 fridays ago i tried adding that anatomy lab but there was a lot of people trying to crash that as well and yeah didnt get it. So that was that and i have to wait until the next semester starts to get that thing. Hopefully they will have more teachers and classes for that cuz its ridiculous to get in. That tuesday i ended up getting into a statistics class but its from 6pm-10pm. that's right..four hour class..fuck that man. i thought i could handle it but all i did was zone out most of the time because im already tired. I'm at school at 11AM so yeah that would mean im there for about 11 hours. The 4 hours felt like an eternity and also since it being a math class...its soo much info in one session. I need it to be broken up in parts so i decided to take that class next semester as well. Or probably intersession/winter session. That brought me to 11 units and i need 12 to be full time so whats better than spending the last unit on tennis? When i played on wednesday it was ridiculously hot and im ridiculously unconditioned for that. I was pretty tired after the first 5 rallies. But the good thing is that im doing something active.


Last week i went to the AV fair and as usual its the same and pretty wack. It was just bigger as its in a new location with an overhaul of cholos walking around lol. Expensive food in small portions but the funnelcake is always good. Didn't do much but walk around. I guess it was something out of boredom. O before that i went to a tattoo parlor somewhere around Lancaster and it was a pretty cool and trustworthy place. Im considering getting something done there. I just need the money and i need to finish the design i want. I just never really get to it. Especially when i don't have a job lol.


The past 2 weekends was about family parties as 2 weeks ago my cousin and his wife had a baby shower and 2 days ago was Jaiden's first birthday. I ain't gonna lie...i don't like family parties on my moms side. All my cousins are way older than me and its kinda hard to chill with them. One is married, the other engaged, and the other....na. We usually play poker or rock band and thats about it. It seems like thats all they can think of doing. It's a family party...just chill and talk to people instead of playing poker all day (where you really cant do anything until you lose or win). I dunno i just find it difficult to do things when im the young one and the ONLY one my age out of everyone.
There was a lot of food at my nephew's bday but the downside was that something gave me and my whole family food poisioning. that shit is horrible. Crapping liquid every 5-10 minutes and throwing up from time to time. I only had one meal and didnt have an appetite to eat anything else until this afternoon. I couldnt get to sleep at all and felt like mad shit. But right now im feeling better. I only have minor headaches and didn't take craps as much. I missed my counselor appointment AGAIN and tennis class but its no biggie. I can always make another appointment and tennis is nothing important to be at.

Out of randomness...i was watching the VMA's and i was pretty disappointed. Pretty wack show. O and i hate how MTV (which stands for MUSIC TELEVISION) are coming out with more shows that dont show MUSIC but more "reality" shows. In the 07 VMA's Justin Timberlake said "Play more Videos" and i have to agree with the guy. I seriously only see music videos being played late at night and during TRL (which i find as an annoying show). Everything else has nothing to do with music. Paris Hilton's New Best Friend Forever? WTF? Busted? A Cops show? Relationship shows like Next, Date my mom, The ex effect, Parental Control, and etc. Man FUCK all those shows haha. i wanna see music and concerts and docs on musicians and all music related things. Obviously thats probably the only way MTV can get ratings but if they really want to have those shows on their network, i suggest that they change their name to something like Variety Television. Ok i'm done with the random subject haha

Right now im just gonna lie down and then get some homework done so yea ill update again when I can. Till next time my dudes.

-Brent